It Is All About Me
It might be because I have a slew of family, cousins, nieces, and nephews that I was taught to always put another person first. As a result, all gatherings were crowded, and being first in anything was a moot point.
It was not unusual for me to extend an invitation to the person next to me to step in front at the meal line, settle in the middle seat in the car, or show up as johnny-on-the-spot for dirty dish detail and laundry and cleaning and babysitting.
You get the idea. I was acting out within ingrained habits without thinking about what I was doing. I became a non-self with no room for me, and questions and creativity and openness and dreaming and wanting and…… I brought these “follow along” habits with me into adulthood.
Then one day, when I was old, I looked at my actions, primarily my efforts within a group, and decided I was not all that happy with that version of Marleen.
And so, I changed. Slowly at first, I gained confidence and momentum.
Do you know that you attract happiness when you show up as yourself? I discovered that first-hand.
My life is healthier today. This is because I no longer wait for someone to step in with new ways of doing things so I can follow along.
No more waiting for someone, anyone, or the right person to step up with questions or solutions.
You might say I fired the old Marleen and hired this new version of me.
And a new version is available for everyone reading this post. A unique and different version of one-self, just in case the old version is not working out so well.
Let’s draw back the curtain of a new one-act play. A play with new stars! And the title?
It Is All About Me.